My name is Tina. I live in New Mexico with my family and a house full of pets ( two dogs, one cat and one very patriotic fish called America RIP America the fish) We live with lots of baskets of laundry and sinks full of dishes and dust- heaps of dust. I clean, really I do,  but I never really catch up and after many years I’ve come to the conclusion that- this season will pass when kids are off to college – so I’ll just deal. Every day its a battle. We have lately entered the world of teens – meaning we have some. And really our youngest is not so little- so the chores have been spread out in a way that I am not so overwhelmed with messiness. Life is still messy, please don’t misunderstand- but that is just because we live hear and the years have mellowed me a bit. I still get uneasy and edgy with messy but am more mindful and aware that its not really usually about the mess. Self care and self compassion and therapy and hard work and Jesus at work in our home.

I am a Family Advocate for La Familia, Inc. A Statewide Non-Profit that foster and adoptive families and kiddos benefit from. I work for All faiths Children’s Advocacy Center in ABQ NM. I love my job. Get to work in surrounding communities with families something like ours. Mostly, I work from home now (during COVID-19 times).

Hubby and I are ex-missionaries with big hearts and good intensions but who had lots and lots of personal wounds and have worked hard to get to wellness over the last year or so. We are SUPER H-U-M-A-N. NOT superhuman but full-on full of faults and sin and in need of all the grace. We are bio, foster and adoptive parents – so just parents – to five an ever-changing number of extremely brilliant kiddos. We advocate for foster and adoptive kiddos and their families. We are far from perfect but we are doing our best to learn this grace-filled way of living one bumpy day at a time.

It has been a hard road but we do try to learn from our mistakes and Father’s grace towards us and that has pried open our hearts to give grace to others. The learning is not done. Not ever.

We are on a path to wholeness- wellness. I can hear the call of the suffering on earth- far away and near us. Sometimes it overwhelms me. The whole World but I am aware that it starts right here in all of our rooms, and then on our street and then well- you get the picture. It overwhelms my smallness but it is not too big or too much or too anything for God. His Grace is more than enough for every soul. So- I’m down – to learn to have His heart.

Father grows us, stretches out our boundaries, makes us something new and that takes time. That kind of deep work takes Jesus, His Word, His people and sometimes that growth hurts- but it is for our good and out of His very Perfect and Holy Love. Real growth is slow growth, I am fond of saying- and I reckon this kind is called ‘the working out of our salvation’.

Philippians 2:12

12 Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling,

This sounds crazy and backward to the world but it is so very Divine and beautiful if you dare to go there with Him.

Some fun facts about me: I love Jesus and my family. I have a “swear jar”. I’m not bragging about it- but I think you should know right off the bat just who it is that you are dealing with here. I also thieve the swear jar for milk money for lunches- yep that is true too. I have goals to clean up my potty mouth and to remember to send milk money. I am a mess more than a conqueror and am constantly blowing even when I blow it I get the privilege of modeling humiliation -I mean humility- and asking for forgiveness from my family and probably the neighbors too. “which is so awesome.” That part is sarcastic. On the lighter side, I also really appreciate knitting, books, masterpiece theater, tea, coffee, chocolate, wine, and Amazon Prime.

Thank you for visiting here, it’s my hope and prayer that you might be encouraged, blessed and maybe even inspired by something you find here and maybe mostly that you hear a familiar voice of honesty and hope.

Peace and so many blessings,